You know what’s missing from my life?
Making impulse decision. Being loud in public…hell, being loud in my own space! Dancing. Singing. Making rude comments. Being brutally honest. Direct, in-your-face confrontations…standing up for myself. Owning my own drama. Knowing that it will not always be out of sight or neatly packed away when I have to interact with others.
What’s missing from my life is a whole range of emotions that I’ve told myself it’s not okay to express! The point here is not to learn to become a raging asshole; it is to learn that when I am dealing with baggage, I should allow myself to express the emotions that come with it.
That is scary.